Good day my friends! How are you all? It’s currently the 6th of June, wait … what? How is it June already? Seriously? Not too long ago the New Year just rolled in and now we’re already almost halfway of the year. It’s unbelievable how time flies so fast.
So what’s up with me? Allow me to de-clutter my mind.
i. Nothing much actually aside from the fact that I’m officially a salary woman. Yay! It has been a long time coming but yeah I am a working lady, people. I started working as a clinic nurse October of last year. Work is doable, tiring yes, but it’s the kind of tiredness that feels worth it. I lay in bed at night after a long day at work with sore muscles but I’m grateful because it’s from being productive. Sure, there are a lot of stresses too but it’s greatly helpful to have friendly and bubbly workmates which makes the job fun too. A lot of teasing, laughing and eating and they love to banter just like how siblings does, that usually makes the highlight of my day.
ii. With me having an income somehow eases the burden financially in our household. I can only pay for our monthly rent, that’s all my salary can afford but that’s already a huge sigh of relief for us to no longer worry about getting kicked out of the apartment and be homeless. I’m able to bring home a few groceries with me from time to time when I hadn’t spent my daily allowance for a few days.
iii. My brother and his girlfriend have been staying with us since last month because the girl is due to deliver their baby any moment from now. My mom didn’t like it at first but now she’s more excited meeting the baby than being pissed with them. They decided to stay with us so the girl will not be left alone while my brother works as she nears her due date. They will have to stay with us probably for a few more months until they both are comfortable to be left alone with their baby. They’re both first time parents so they will need a lot of guidance and support especially from my parents.
iv. With my younger brother soon going to be a dad just made me feel that I am actually getting old, given that I am already turning 30 in a few months definitely made me realized that I am no longer a child. I cannot put into words how exactly I am feeling but it’s a weird feeling for sure. I am like in between being in denial and acceptance.
v. Since I started working, it seemed like I can barely do anything else in my day aside from the time I spend at work. When I come home, more often than not, I fall asleep once I hit the pillow. It has been a routine of mine that once I changed into my lounge wear or pajamas, I lay in bed to straighten my back then the next thing I know, my alarm is waking me up the next day. I used to have trouble sleeping, I even call myself a zombie or a vampire but nowadays, in most days I sleep like a baby.
vi. I am extremely itching to redecorate our house. I want to get rid of our old things and furnitures which have seen better days. I want a complete revamp of our home stuff. No, this is not me being wasteful. I just want a refresh. Most of our home stuff we have been using since my high school days and that was ages ago. I want our home to look a bit more modern yet still cosy. Honestly, these things have been a constant reminder for me of that dark phase in my life that I don’t want to remember so I really want to get rid of them.
Considering how very limited my fund is, this will be a long time project.
vii. In line with revamping our home stuff, I also want a complete refresh of my personal stuff, from my wardrobe to my gadgets. Again, this is not me being maluho or luxurious. A lot of my clothes I’ve been wearing since my college days. , I’m no longer a teenager. So I need to dress and walk my age, don’t you think?
My bags, laptop and phone are all hand me downs from my mom. My laptop is old and outdated. I’m still okay with it since it’s still functional until it started acting up. It shuts down and restarts on itself. It’s getting slow. A lot of its apps and softwares are outdated. The most annoying thing of all is that the keyboard is busted. A number of its keys don’t work anymore.
viii. Another thing, this girl is in dire need of a haircut. My hair has been so wild like a lion’s mane. My hair is thick and so frizzy and considering how humid this country is, this hair in the head of mine just couldn’t be tamed. I plan on getting it sorted one of these days. I just need to figure out when I can get it done because Sundays are my only days off and we all know on Sundays, a lot of businesses are closed which is a bummer.
ix. I am really itching to get dental braces. Not because I want to be trendy but because I really need to. I have been trying to get it for ages, it just always doesn’t happen. I’m setting aside my 13th month pay for that so, soon teeth. It’ll be soon.
x. Anyone out there who can teach me how to properly manage time please? My hobbies have been neglected and forgotten. A huge chunk of my time is spent working in the clinic, I feel like I couldn’t do anything else because when I come home, I’d rather rest and sleep. I’ve been intending to get back to exercising but I just don’t know how I can fit it in my day or if I still have the energy to do so. I also miss reading, books and blogs too. I miss writing and this blog. Add in my want to learn to play ukulele. How?
So many plans but not one gets done, at least for now.
xi. Also, anyone who knows a cute name or endearment for tita/auntie? I want to be called by my niece with something cute, not just tita or auntie. Those will be reminder that I am at that age already.
Please, excuse this lady who gets a bit sensitive with her age.
That’s all for now, friends.
How about you, did you go through a phase where you get sensitive with your age too? I’m curious. I’d like to know I’m not the only one.