I have to say that the new year have brought me new hope in my life right now. I say enough of the old me (she’s history) and welcome the (hopefully) better and improved me. This year I want to take risks but we all know that fear and risk comes hand in hand.
All I want right now is to be independent. I am already 23 years but still have no job and still living with my family. I am in this stage of my life wherein I want to test and explore my limits and capabilities. I also want to see how will I live my life with my own decisions and actions, simply living just depending with myself. It’s not that I want to leave my family and friends or abandon them, that will never happen. I just want to be able to grow and learn in some things with my own means.
Right now, I am considering moving to a new city quite far from here. You know, new place, new people, new start. The good thing is that my mom supports me in this, she’s okay with it just because I have an aunt living in that city who can assist me if even I need help and can lookout for me while I’m starting there. The bad thing is that getting there alone sounds scary to me. So it’s like here I am again, scared and that’s the old me really, fear hinders me from moving forward and that’s not what I want.
Then I remember a friend of mine, she’s a friend since high school and she’s pretty much in the same phase as I am. So I kind of invited her if she wants to come with me in that new city where we can start over with our lives together and honestly, that really excites and thrills me so much. She said she’d love to but she still needs to talk to her dad.
For now, if I really want to pursue moving into that new city my options are waiting for my friend’s decision or bravely face the fear and challenges of going there alone. The latter just made the hairs in arms stand up, it’s that scary for me. What do you think? What should I do?