Well, we’re only a couple of days away until this year finally comes to an end and this is also the time when we all look back to how we did this year. As for me, 2015 had whipped my butt really hard to the extent that the sting lingered for quite a long while and that actually shook my brain to finally realized a lot of significant things.
2015 may had been a little hard on me and to my family, there have been a lot of things happened but I’m still happy that most of the things had fell back to their places, they may not be the same as before but we can deal with that and still working on some of it. 2015 had been like a big reservoir of negativities where I have drowned myself with frustrations, anger, fear, insecurities, jealousy, envy, self-pity and self-doubt. Nope, I am not being dramatic here, it’s true that I’ve harbored all of those things and I was so stupid to let myself be overpowered with them. Regrets, if not always then most of the time comes at the end when you’ve already come to realizations as to what you may or may not have done wrong.
One of the things that I craved for this year was an opportunity to get out of this what I call the idle phase of my life. I was actually given a handful of opportunities but it was me who let all of those chances slipped out of my hands and then as a result I immersed myself again in all of those negativities. That’s pretty much the cycle that I was in all this time.
But let’s not just talk about the bad things because if there were a lot of negative things then let’s not forget about the positive things that I also have gained this year. They may be as cliche as they can be but you can really delve into a whole new level of understanding with such cliche things when you yourself have been put into the situation and get to experience such things.
So, since it’s almost the end of the year – very timely isn’t it? – I’m gonna wrap up all of these things and together with 2015, is ready to let it all go. As the new year approaches, so are the new beginnings. I want 2016 to be a year of self-discovery and self-improvement for me. I have lost myself along the way all these years so I think it’s about time to rediscover myself. I’m not saying that I’m gonna be
selfish, I’m just saying that I’m gonna give more time to myself and more credit for the things that I’ll do.
Goodbye 2015! WELCOME 2016! And to all the challenges that you may bring with you. Bring it on!