Realizations of 2016

2016 has been like a wind for me. It came and just flew by.  Out of all the years that I have been a bum, 2016 has been the laziest year for me because literally I’ve accomplished nothing. It felt like I did so many things when in fact I did nothing at all. But I have to say though that in 2016 I have realized so much about myself so I think I can say that the resolutions I’ve had last year weren’t entirely useless.

Doing things right away

I swear I can be the queen of procrastination; I am so guilty of that but this is something that I can say that I am getting better at. Just do all the things that you can right away. Don’t wait for tomorrow or the next day after that because there’s a huge chance that you’ll never get to it. STOP putting off what you can do right away. JUST DO IT!

Not caring about what other people says

This is still a work in progress for sure but towards the end of 2016, I just noticed myself not giving a damn about every single thing that people say or think about me. I learned to hear them out and their sentiments but not letting myself be easily affected by it. I think learning about this comes with age because once I turned 25, this thing have become easier for me.

Speaking up

I used to be that person who just can’t say no, always saying yes even though I don’t really want to. I’ve noticed that with my friends and family I have been a little more vocal about my preferences, my likes and dislikes. If I have an opinion to share, I am not that afraid anymore to voice out what’s on my mind but of course I think before I speak. I make sure that I relay my message in a polite way.

Being more open-minded about love and relationship

I claim myself being the president of the No-Boyfriend-Since-Birth Club, I’m still going strong at it. Yes, I’m 25 and have never had a boyfriend ever before. But I’m at that age where many people around me are marrying and having babies already. When I scroll through my Facebook feed, mostly that I see are photos of weddings and newborn babies. I am not feeling pressured in any way but when my mom told me that before when I was younger, she was worried that I’ll have a boyfriend and neglect my studies, get pregnant and end up being a single teenage mom but now she’s worried that I may never get married and have babies of my own at all. That worries me too, actually. I am not a man hater but surely they’ve given me a lot of bad impressions.

Being more comfortable with my skin despite my acne

I am naturally a total homebody, I prefer being at home most of the time but there were also a lot of times when I wanted to go out and hang out with friends but ended up not going because I didn’t know how to make myself presentable. I felt disgusting because my skin looked disgusting and I knew piling on layers of makeup over it will just make it worst. I must admit that my skin discouraged me from going out and being sociable. My friends have seen me when I had a clear and smooth skin just like a baby and they’ve seen me at my worst, big angry swollen painful zits everywhere in my face and they’re totally fine with it. So I realized why the heck I would be embarrass about my acne, it’s not like acne is a rare thing. Sure, some of my friends teased me for it and still up to this day but I know that it’s the teasing in a non-judgmental way, it’s more to annoy me really. Now, I don’t mind going out of the house in my bare face. I even go to the mall, to the church or to the supermarket without a speck of makeup in my face because who cares and why not. It’s not like you’re going to meet all those people who see you again, right?

What are the realizations you’ve taken away from 2016? I would love to know. Don’t hesitate to share. 🙂

 

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That’s A Wrap, 2015!

Well, we’re only a couple of days away until this year finally comes to an end and this is also the time when we all look back to how we did this year. As for me, 2015 had whipped my butt really hard to the extent that the sting lingered for quite a long while and that actually shook my brain to finally realized a lot of significant things.

2015 may had been a little hard on me and to my family, there have been a lot of things happened but I’m still happy that most of the things had fell back to their places, they may not be the same as before but we can deal with that and still working on some of it. 2015 had been like a big reservoir of negativities where I have drowned myself with frustrations, anger, fear, insecurities, jealousy, envy, self-pity and self-doubt. Nope, I am not being dramatic here, it’s true that I’ve harbored all of those things and I was so stupid to let myself be overpowered with them. Regrets, if not always then most of the time comes at the end when you’ve already come to realizations as to what you may or may not have done wrong.

One of the things that I craved for this year was an opportunity to get out of this what I call the idle phase of my life. I was actually given a handful of opportunities but it was me who let all of those chances slipped out of my hands and then as a result I immersed myself again in all of those negativities. That’s pretty much the cycle that I was in all this time.

But let’s not just talk about the bad things because if there were a lot of negative things then let’s not forget about the positive things that I also have gained this year. They may be as cliche as they can be but you can really delve into a whole new level of understanding with such cliche things when you yourself have been put into the situation and get to experience such things.

So, since it’s almost the end of the year – very timely isn’t it? – I’m gonna wrap up all of these things and together with 2015, is ready to let it all go. As the new year approaches, so are the new beginnings. I want 2016 to be a year of self-discovery and self-improvement for me. I have lost myself along the way all these years so I think it’s about time to rediscover myself. I’m not saying that I’m gonna be selfish, I’m just saying that I’m gonna give more time to myself and more credit for the things that I’ll do.

Goodbye 2015! WELCOME 2016! And to all the challenges that you may bring with you. Bring it on!