What’s Up With Me?

Hello you beautiful people of the world! Hi! How are you? Gerry here. Still alive and thankfully still human. Oh my goodness! It’s been so long isn’t it?  How are you guys doing? I feel like I’ve been gone for like a hundred long years, what an exaggeration I know. Though I was able to dropped some likes and comments here and there but still, obviously it wasn’t enough to keep up.

I feel like a lot has happened since the last time I posted on here but now that I’m thinking about it, I feel otherwise. You may or may not know that the main reason as to why I had been somewhat inactive on this blog was because I didn’t have internet, if I remember it correctly, I think it was since around July or August of last year. Why, you may ask? I wouldn’t go into details but  I can tell you it was because of my brother’s great doing. I remember my parent’s and I were so shocked when we saw that our internet’s bill suddenly skyrocketed off the roof. It amounted more or less to all of our utility bills combined. My mom was so pissed because it still happened despite of my mom and I’s constant reminder to them. So what my mom did was that she didn’t pay the bill at all. It was just one person’s mistake but all of us suffered. Lesson learned … don’t pissed my mom.

Another reason as to why my mom did that was that it was that time around when my parents contemplated about moving apartment. We were just not happy anymore with our previous home. It already harbored a lot of negative vibes and energies. We were all dreading coming home to that apartment. It caused us stress and distress so it wasn’t really homey and pleasant anymore. We were all bad tempered and we were all fighting and arguing most of the time. I know it’s so lame blaming these stuff on a house but I do agree with the notion that our environment plays a vital role in influencing us … with how we behave, how we think, how we deal with things, how we decide and so on and so forth.

It has been a challenge looking for an apartment because 1. we’re on a budget, 2. we’re too many, we’re seven person in the family and 3. we have pets – three dogs and a cat. My mom told me that landlords nowadays prefers up to five people maximum in an apartment and no pets which were bummers because she had found a number of nice apartments that’s within the budget but couldn’t really get it because of the said reasons. Frustrating, I know. That’s why it had taken quite a while before we moved.

On December, we started packing and by we I mean my mom and I. It was kind of a slow process at first as we don’t really know when we can move yet. I started going through our stuff, one category at a time. I disposed of the things we don’t really need or use anymore and boxed those that we do need. I did one or two boxes a day then after that I binge watch k-dramas because why not, that’s my only happiness at the time. We powered through Christmas and New Year with our house in chaos, full of boxes and only with the most basic stuff. I even had a little accident in the kitchen just 3 hours before new year. I burned myself whilst trying to start our oven. The fire literally went past me, by my face actually. I burned a little of my hair (the ones that had unraveled out of my braid especially those under my ears and my baby bangs), my eyebrows, eyelashes and also four fingers in my right hand. Yeah, that happened.

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My mom witnessed that, she was so shocked, all she said was to asked me if I’m alright.  The only thing going on in my mind at that time was that “Did I lose my eyebrows? Do I now look like Voldemort?”.  I was so worried about my brows that my mom had a lot of fun teasing me about not knowing how to draw them. Yes people, I don’t do my brows. I am so grateful for being born with a naturally ‘shaped’ eyebrows but with that incident, the arch area in my right eyebrow has become sparse. It looks like I have a bald spot there but not really. It’s not that noticeable but I do notice it every time I look in the mirror. So now, that’s what I’m attempting to learn, on how to do the brows because it’s really bothering me and my mom just won’t shut up about it. I even bought myself an eyebrow pencil recently but never tried to use it yet. Will I ever learn? That’s the million dollar question.

Then comes January 2018, the first two weeks consisted still with a series of packing, packing, packing and more packing until one afternoon my mom said to me pack everything, we’re moving that evening. Everything that day happened so fast that I didn’t know what day that was. Up to now, I still couldn’t remember the exact date of that very night we moved into our new apartment. All I can remember was that it was around the fourth week of January.

Now that we’ve moved and all settled in this new home, all seems lighter and brighter, literally and figuratively. We’re happier. I sleep oh so so so much better. I now usually sleep around midnight and wakes up to a bright morning. I now usually get more than 6 hours of sleep a day. I mean who wouldn’t be happy with that? Am I right? There are still nights that I stay up until 2 or 3 am but that’s it.

Wait … I intended this post to be a quick greeting, just to popped in your newsfeed and say Hi! but I didn’t notice I already blabbered so much and spouted all these words. Oopps! Well, I better end this here.

 

May we all have a wicked day!!! A good kind of wicked, okay? 😉

 

Gerry over and out. 😀

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What Have I Been Up To?

Seriously, I should be asking that same question to myself too. I can’t believe we’re nearing at the end of March already, where has the time gone? This past two weeks, I often find myself reflecting about my life; the decisions I made, the regrets, the opportunities that I’ve let slipped out of my hand and the whole shenanigans. I also have been thinking about my future too more often and the things that I can do to rectify the bad choices that I made before while also trying to learn from it. I hope to figure out and extract the lessons from them and leave the rest behind in the past. I know that the past is not a good place to hang out especially if it makes you feel like crap when you realized it was you who put yourself in those situations and that there was no one to blame but you. The regrets and frustrations are hitting me hard but I am totally aware that there’s nothing I can do about it to change it yet there’s a whole lot of things that I can do to make the now and tomorrow better.

After the New Year, I’ve had a lot of plans and goals that I have set out for myself. I even written the post Things I’ll Strive For in 2017 to make it as my guide when things slips out of my mind again because that’s something that is expected to happen. So lately, my mind often wanders in there and reminds me that I am totally slacking off again which isn’t great in every way. I realized that I wasn’t doing anything or exerting efforts at all to make those items in that post to happen. Then, I imagined in my head that I was whipping myself for not living up to the word that I put in there, strive. Not making it in one go doesn’t necessarily mean you failed, it’s about making great efforts, really fighting to get that thing that you want to obtain. So here I am, ready to do just that. Again.

Friday of last week, I was finally able to enroll in the certification course that I’ve been wanting. I was supposed to enroll on February but I didn’t make it as there was no available slot anymore, that’s why now I made sure that I enroll early even though the training isn’t starting until the third week of April. When I received the confirmation that I was officially enrolled, I felt ecstatic. I felt like I have made something big for my life, if you know what I mean. Now that I’m thinking about it, I’m feeling anxious with all the worries in my head yet really excited. I am so looking forward for it to start already.

Also, I got back into reading again. I  probably have read four or five books this past two weeks which is really cool. Reading have again provided me with escape from all this overwhelming stuff in my already confused mind. Whenever I feel like my brain is having too much, I’ll just whip out my iPad and I will be pulled into a whole new world.

Another news that I want to share is that my family have adapted a new kitten. My brother brought him home last week. Meet Mogwai. Isn’t he cute?

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Our three dogs weren’t thrilled the first time my brother brought Mogwai home. They were always barking at him whenever they see him but they’re all good now. They love playing with him. Our poodle, jLo, acts as his babysitter. Our chowskie mix, Ginger, acts as his playmate. They play and bully each other all the time. Our japanese spitz, Francine, acts as the random stranger, random playmate and a random nemesis.

That’s all for now folks. Just really wanted to dump all these into writing because it helps a lot for me in managing my sanity.